Once again, I am learning, this time about life.
There are many parts of myself that I never noticed before, yet they were shown to me through the eyes of someone else. For that, I am thankful to someone.

My life truly changed, made me feel like a real human being. Yes, a complete human.
All this time, I had forgotten one side of life, the side of feelings.

Hard experiences, like strong waves hitting me, shaped me into a person who is really tough. Too tough on myself, not giving space to understand feelings, not even to share them with others.

Learning about feelings is like learning something unclear, full of random patterns. Honestly, it is not easy. The wall inside me had stood for so long, strong and covered in dust.

But at last that wall fell down, completely broken. Everything was uncovered. Slowly, a light appeared through the dust. I realized that I could also feel. I realized that I could also open my heart.

Sadly, the one who broke that wall is now moving away from me. I do not know if it is forever or only for a while. It is not really that someone’s fault, but mostly mine. I was too late to understand feelings. I was not yet ready to face matters of the heart. At that time, I had not even understood myself.

Honestly, I still hope to be with them for longer. I do not want to part. I do not want to lose. To lose someone so precious, someone who means so much.

Tainan, August 22 2025